December

December is probably the worst month of the year, even though Christmas falls into this month, the weather is terrible. It's so cold outside right now and very windy, no one wants to go outside. I don't even have a jacket to wear, my other one got a hole in it, and I keep forgetting to order a new one. There isn't any snow to make this remotely fun at all. Everyone is getting a cold or flu or some other sickness because of this, and it sure does make my head hurt.Finals also fall into this month, even if im getting out of four finals, five if they would allow me, its still a dreaded time studying so much that you don't screw your grade up the slightest bit. And to top it off, I have to take the ACT this weekend and it's making me quite nervous, but I'm sure I will do fine this weekend. Only 9 days into the month and I'm already wishing it was over, I don't want to even think how bad January will be, hopefully we will get another ice storm and we wont have to go to school for awhile, that was I never have to leave the warmth of my home.

Santa isn't real

The moment I found out Santa Claus wasn't real was a sad time in my childhood, and after that, my Christmases filled with lots of presents soon came to a close. It happened in December, a few days before Christmas I was looking around in my garage when i found something under a tarp. Under it just happened to be a basketball goal that i was sure was for me for Chirstmas. As Christmas Eve came, this was when i opened presents from my mom, there wasn't a basketball goal in sight, so i just forgot about it. But, the next morning, there was a large boxed, marked as being from Santa, inside was the Basketball goal. I was mad that my mother would lie to me but i tried to deny the fact and thought i could be wrong, over time i accepted that my Christmas was ruied.

November

This month so far has been pretty unproductive and I have so many things to do at once, including my 3 projects at school and studying for the ACT test. Just today I took my permit test for the first time, after already being 17 for 4 months since I didn't think it was all that necessary yet, and failed the first half of the test, which was pretty disappointing, and the next time ill be able to get to take the test wont be for another two weeks. Hopefully next week will be better with Thanksgiving coming around and ill be able to relax for a few days.

November 4th

"Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgiving." I believe this means that you should give to people without expecting to get anything back, but when you take something from someone, you should repay them back. This seems to go with the idea of a lot of Christmas saying and ideas, saying to give to others and not expect anything in return.

Halloween

I'm sad to say that this year's Halloween was quite boring for me. I didn't trick-or-treat or handout candy, or even watch a scary movie, instead I hungout with my girlfriend and we didn't do much at all. After sitting at my house for a few hours waiting for my mom to get home with my niece, we got bored and went to Wal-mart, which was equally boring, but at least I got out of the house. Then we decided to go to her brother's house, who had told her that we would be watching movies and ordering a pizza. After we got there, we noticed he had all of his girlfriend's sisters over and their boyfriends too, even her parents came over. They made shrimp and her brother put in some ridiculous cartoon. So after 2 hours of watching them play with a baby, we went back to her house for awhile then I went home. Lets just say that this Halloween sucked.

Fall Break

Most of my fall break, out of school, was spent sleeping for long periods of time, but for a few days I did go on vacation with my girlfriend to Gatlinburg. The time there was pretty fun, and the Smokey Mountains were incredible looking. The entire town was filled with little places to eat like at a carnival, not to mention the tons of candy and ice cream shops, it seemed like there was a pancake restaurant every 100 feet down the road. Gatlinburg seemed to be ran be the Ripley's  believe it or not company. All together it was a quite enjoyable experience and I wouldn't mind going back soon.

Senses

Halloween is a great time of year, and our senses can show why this is. The sights of the pumpkins and light and all kinds of people dressed up walking down the street that set the mood. The taste of the treats that people give out, and even the smell of leaves, pumpkins, and sugar is in the air. You can hear people chanting trick or treat as they walk from door to door begging for candy. The cool fall air on your skin just makes this time of year just feel great. So Halloween is a great time of the year to get out and exercise your senses!

Career

The past year I decided that I wanted to be a civil engineer. After thinking about this for a long time, I realized how boring this would be, and a lot more difficult than I expected, mostly because of my drafting 2 classes and the amount of work, thinking, and mathematics involved. The career choice I have now thought about pursuing is a doctor. But if I wish to obtain this goal it will sure be a lot of work, four years of college studying all the different sciences followed by taking another four years of medical school and even after that I can't get a job as a doctor, I would have to do another 3  to 8 years of residency and internship depending on the type of doctor I would like to be. I'll have to work very hard during the long eight years in school, but I think I'm ready to take this up, and the rewards for succeeding will be vast.

Fear

Children today and throughout history always seem to have certain fear of things before they hit adulthood. As a child i was always afraid of the dark. Every night I would either have to have some sort of light on in my room or the tv on. This usually kept me up longer but got me not to be afraid. On the nights i didn't do either of these things, i would get so scared listening to my house creek and heater making noises, as well as other things outside. And the shadows of things in my room would make me think id see someone or something in my house that didn't belong. Lately I just turn on my fan so I wouldn't be able to hear anything going on. I guess that was one of my main fears as a child, but I am still very afraid and creeped out by spiders, who knows when ill outgrow this.

Autumn

Autumn to me is the greatest time of the year, it's not hot and its not too cold. It just makes you want to go outside and do something rather than trying to avoid the heat of the summer that just passed. Even though it usually always looks rather gloomy outside, it makes it feel peaceful and calm and you could just sit outside for hours and enjoy the scenery. The trees and the leaves covering the grass, that is slowly turning a light brown color, just blends together and gives color, instead of all green. The crunching of leaves when you walk is also enjoyable along with smell of the air and wind that brings it along. Now if only leaves could rake themselves.

Reading/Writing

After thinking how the majority of people in that time period of the book couldn't read or write, i thought about the things we do today that require it. First we wouldn't be able to take notes in classes, take tests, or ever have any homework from school, which this would all be great, except the fact that i might be an idiot. But others include not being able to text my friends, use myspace, or any social networking sites online, there might as well not even be an internet because most sites require you to read, this also means I wouldn't even be doing this assignment or even knew it was possible to do. But thankfully most of the world can read and write so I have nothing to worry about.

Spring

Spring makes me think of the coming warm weather, the trees and flowers blooms, and the storms that everyone just enjoys so much. But somethings about Spring, i just can stand like the constant allergies that plague me for months or even the thought of having to start mowing the grass again week after week. So its hard to say how i feel about spring, there are lots of positives and negatives to the wonderful time of the year, but overall i would say i would have to enjoy, well of course with tons of allergy medication i do.

Potatoes

People in England in Chaucer's day did not not know what a potato was. My life without knowing what a potato was wouldn't be very fun; I probably wouldn't be eating so much fast food and instead staying at home and eating. There would be very little snacking as there wouldn't be any potato chips to eat! The fast food industry would be practically nonexistent, no McDonalds or Burger King. Even the companies that made all of the cooking oil to fry the potatoes wouldn't be as successful. And one of the best holidays of the year, Thanksgiving, would be just as dull as a day like labor day. Luckily though, I will never have to know how this would be.

Love is Blind

Saying love is blind basically means you will love someone no matter what they look like and you also overlook any perfections that this person has. Love to me is a complicated thing, so many kids i see lately start dating a person and after less than a week, are already saying they love them, and when it comes down to it, they don't really feel that way, its just an over use of emotion. Everyday i hear people getting made fun of for how they look, but when it comes down to it, if you love that person, you aren't going to care what they look like, you want to see whats inside that person and who they are/how they act. If people took the time to meet someone and talk to them, they may end up overlooking the flaws they were thinking about earlier.

Tenants of vitreous abodes...

Tenants of vitreous abodes, ought not to hurl lithoidal fragments. In other words this means people should talk bad about someone and not expect them to talk bad back. A lot of my friends seem to fit this phrase, they can talk bad about someone, a certain type of people, or how people act, but as soon as someone says something to them or makes fun of them, its the other persons fault. It seems unjust for people to do this when you are different too, and subject to be made fun of, so it ends up not making sense at all why someone would do that. I myself have been subject to sending and receiving this sort of "trash talk" i would say, but i try to learn from my mistakes and not do it again. 

"Friendship doubles joy and havles grief."

What I get from this is that friendship gets you out of the hard times, or being depressed, and often keeps you out of them. For example, last year i had a few rough patches in school and out of school that I needed someone to talk to to cheer me up and get me through it. I owe my friends for where I am now and I plan to keep up my grades and not worry about things so much that bothered me in the past. I just try to be laid back and chilled out most of the time now.

Precipitancy creates prodigality

Or in other words "Haste Makes Waste" which is more known today. Some examples I have experienced this to be true is in school. If I'm told to write and essay or complete a test in a short amount of time, I usually slip a lot because I'm in a hurry. For example, when I took the ACT last and we had all the time limits I was in a rush so I missed several of the questions that i probably would have gotten right if I had taken the time. This also applies in art class, if I have little time to complete a piece I usually rush it to get done and it looks sloppy.

Leaders

The kind of leaders I admire the most are the ones that are able to lead a group of people with little or no problems with what they are saying or doing. Ones that are able to handle people in a kind and respectable manner. Are able to set rules that are fair and put limits so things don't get out of control without them being too strict. And above most do this successfully without giving up and keep going.

Family

Family to me is sort of an awkward thing, most of it is gone or doesnt speak to eachother anymore. My father died three weeks before i was born, and for some reason, that side of my family i guess blames my mom because of it, so we, for the most part, lost contact of one another. And on my mother's side, my grandma died a few years ago of cancer and my uncle introuble over drugs. I'm the youngest of three kids and the only one who still lives at home. I'd like to imagine my dad never died, and possibly none of this seperation would have happened, but i guess ill never know. So i guess family isn't so important to me as id like it do be.

Monday, August 24th

Today is just a normal day, going to school, and being extremely tired. Then after school probally going to my friends house or calling my girlfriend, like every other day of the week. The only thing i could look forward to is the weekend to see my girlfriend or catch up on some sleep.